Another One of Those Tough Days

John had a physical agility test at work this morning and he passed with flying colors! The test consisted of six different stations, each testing one's physical abilities on different fire fighting tasks. He had to do fifteen of the stations in fifteen minutes while wearing his full bunker gear and air pack. I was able to be there with him and cheer him on as he rotated around to each of the stations. I am so glad that he can finally start picking up some more shifts again at Show Low Fire Department. He has been out of work for almost two months now since he broke his foot in December. I am so proud of him that he worked as hard as he could to get the job done. There is no way that I could do such a strenuous test like he did today.

The past month we have been struggling financially since John has been out of work. I was working at a local medical office here in town but in November I quit since John was working so much and my minimal amount of pay was barely making a dent; since his paychecks were practically triple my amount.

Days like today I wish I still had kept my job but with all my school work I feel as though I, myself, am barely making it. I am so very thankful for my family who helped us out the past month. There is no way we would have been able to survive without them. I wish there was someway to repay them for all they have done for us but we barely have enough to make by for now. I'll admit it is hard for me to ask for help but hopefully someday I can pay it forward to all those who have helped us get this far.

 In the next upcoming months, we will be having many changes happening in our lives that I am nervous about. Everyday I keep thinking about our future and where we will be and I wonder what life will be like for us. I do know that no matter what, everything will turn out to be alright and we will be taken care of.

I know I need to stay positive today and keep an eye on our brilliant future because, "A smooth sea never made a skillful sailor." Today, I will hold on and take the future and whatever else comes my way. However, it couldn't hurt to add a little chocolate and sweets from my secret stash to help me through the day though would it? ;)